New site!!!!

www.xanga.com/xShotgun__Weddingx3

yeah...go to that now...

~Jessie!~

so im back at my nana's...it just didnt feel right at my moms...anyways..ISD IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay omfg yay well it just hit me that im really overdramatic and that im whiny....buuut it doesnt make me sad and like its just a "oh ok well i didnt really realize that" i think its funny...anyyyways....hmmm ohhhh i got a cookie today it was a good cookie...i dont know why this is worth writing about buut it is...mmmmmmm it was good....thank you brady!!!! (even though you probably wont read this ) hmmmm i have lost all interest in the drink sprite i have moved on to mountain dew...even though i have always liked it...i just like it best now...OHHH I GOT PAST THIS THING IN MY GAME I COULD NEVER BEAT!!!! in case you were wondering the game is Final Fantasy x....yes i do play that...and x-2 and 7 and 8....because i think they are like the best games ever! anywho yeah this is my like most uhh random post...

~Jessie!~

She's so glamorous in that
heart broken, shattered spirit,
dead on the inside kind of way

i'd get on that plane hoping it would crash,
just so you could hear my name again.

I guess life took us in two different directions.
& maybe that`s ok with you but sometimes I find myself
trying to find my way back to where you are

i love it when the only sound 
i hear is your infectious laughter

woke up to the sound of pouring rain
the wind would whisper and i'd think of you
and all the tears you cried that called my name
and when you needed me i came through

a lot of these years go by ((wasted))

hey...ummm i have been staying at my moms still...fun fun  anyways...yeah i didnt get very many comments on my last dealie...but thats ok....i just felt like updating. hmmm have you ever had the friend that you thought the world of and like it seems they are just like "blah" about you?? but then sometimes you talk for a long time and it seems like your getting to be better friends but then like the next day it seems like your not???...yeah that was probably confusing but thats kinda what is happening with me.

~Jessie!~

LOVE. MY DRUG
HiS SOUR LiPS THE
POiSON. && HiS HEART
MY ADDiCTiON

You are as beautiful as ever,
Yet I'm starting to resent your smile
Because it's killing me to say this,
But I'm dying inside to leave
It's a place we've never been,
It's a waste to keep it in
It means little to you but the world to me

when you`re truely in love,
you won`t give up on him..

just because you love him
more than you love yourself
doesn`t mean you should hold on
its killing you
i can see it in your eyes
and hear it in your voice
calm and steady
but inside you`re screaming so loud
my ears are shattering

Why do I think about you all the time?
Why do I make up excuses just to see you?
Why do I wonder what you are doing?
Why do I hope you are thinking of me?
Why do I get jealous when you are with other girls?
Why do I think of you 24/7?
Why do I miss the time we had together?
Why do I try so hard for you to notice me?
Why do I hope you notice me?
Why do I smile everytime I think of you?
Why do I feel a rush when I see you?
Why do I always dream of you?
Why do I fall asleep thinking of you?
Why do I keep hoping for a miracle?
Why do I spend hours getting ready for you?
I'm sorry darling, I fell in love with you.

hmmm im staying at my mommys house at the moment...all my shit is there...i guess me and my nana got in a fight, but i called her at lunch. i wanna sleep in my princess bed that i just got, i havent even got to sleep on it or even sit on it. i just wanna go home like NOW. i realized i love my nana i just dont like her, like all the time, i even miss my brat ass sister jamie i dont even know why these words are escaping my mouth but i guess i have just lived with my nana for so long that not living with her just doesnt seem right even though she is a psycho neat freak i guess i have learned to live with it. other than that theres nothing else going on.O YEAH MIKE SCOTT GAVE ME A 50$ GIFT CARD FROM PAC SUN!!! he said he stole it from this kid and like he called in and it still had 50 dollars on it...lets just see if mr mikey is lying.

~Jessie!~

& you can come over,
we can watch a scary movie
and take stupid pictures,
fall asleep together on my couch,
because you are my everything
and all that i am, is yours

take him & cut him out into little stars
& he will make the face of heaven so fine
that all of the world will be in love with night

Standing at the back door
She tried to make it fast
One tear hit the hard wood
It fell like broken glass
She said sometimes love slips away
And you just can't get it back
Let's face it

it's so cute
the way she acts like
nothings bothering her
when really everything is

Just an old love song..
The mention of your name..
My heart breaks again..
I guess some things just never change

valentines is coming up!!!! WOO HOO!!!! not... usually i like valentines day because i think its cute...but not this year i realized like all my friends have someone for valentines day,but me, no...i have never had a boyfriend on valentines day. it makes me sad. but oh well....i guess it doesnt ,atter,even though it kinda does to me.

~Jessie!~

and i do kind of regret writein that other thing because i dont think he thought it was very cute

i'm not trying to say i don't want you
because i definitely do,
all im saying is i'm
done chasing after you

cause you leave me speechless,
when you talk to me.
you leave me breathless,
the way you look at me.
you manage to disarm me.
my soul is shining through.
can't help but surrender,
my everything to you. 

it's hard to wait around for something you know won't happen, but it's even harder to stop waiting when it's everything you want.

it's hard to say that i was wrong
it's hard to say i miss you
it's hard to say i held my tongue
it's hard to say if only...

fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore
she loves salting my wounds
yes, she enjoys nothing more

I'm sitting here alone, all I can think of is you
How beautiful you looked, the scent of your hair
When I saw you this afternoon

& when you like someone
everything about them
seems to be simply adorable <3

& i want to say something more
but im afraid that it will ruin
what we already have 

&& You've got the arms 
i want to be wrapped in
the eyes i want to lose
myself in  &&  the voice 
i could listen to for hours 

and after a while the jokes aren't funny anymore,
there's nothing left to smile about, everyone begins
to look the same, lovers lose their passion, friends
become enemies and the life we once knew is gone.

this may be the last thing that I write for long.
can you hear me smiling
when I sing this song?
for you.. & only you.